It’s not that I don’t think that I have anything left. It’s that I had nothing to begin with.
Do you know what it is like to truly feel unsafe?
Ouch, I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am no where to be found. Yeah, I think that I might break. Lost myself again and I feel unsafe. Be my friend. Hold me. Wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up and breathe me.
Why do we fall in love so easy even when it’s not right? Where there is desire there is gonna be a flame. Where there is a flame someone’s bound to get burned. But just because it burns doesn’t mean you’re gonna die.
You told me. You told me but I didn’t know. You told me but I didn’t believe you. Do you want to know why? Do you want to know why I didn’t believe you? Do you want to know how I could not have known? Because you always let me down. For every time you calmed my soul, you also pulled my heart. For every time you made me weak, you made my eyes burn. You can’t just do that to someone you know. You just can’t. Especially not me. You can’t do that. Because if you do that then I don’t believe you. And so I didn’t believe you. And now, there’s nothing to believe. The only thing I believe is that I missed it. I missed that chance. And the only thing I know now is regret. That is the only thing I ever know.
During the semester:
When I see that they’re posted online:
Second Quarter with my chicken basket: